This most recent post will be some of my feelings throughout this whole process. This process has been long, hard, taxing, stressful, and every other emotion we could probably fathom. Several people have asked how we are doing. It is easiest to state “we are doing good”. It becomes a part of our vocabulary, part of a natural response to the question. But what does good really mean?

Good for us has several different meanings. But mostly they are wrapped up in what is going on with In-Vitro. Unfortunately In-Vitro isn’t the only thing going on in our lives right now. Work has its good days and bad. My OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) has moments when I just can’t let things go. There are days when Jason is traveling for work and I miss him so much (or I don’t miss him at all), church takes time away from everything we have going on as well. But when people hear “good”, it usually means that things are moving right along with In-Vitro. Things are not too overwhelming, we have done everything we need to; we are putting all our faith into the process.

Most importantly through this whole process, “good” means that we are surviving. This has been the hardest thing either of us have ever had to do. We look back on our missions for our church and realize that even though they were difficult, we have never been put to the test like this before. We feel so blessed to be members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and have the knowledge that Heavenly father is there for us. When we say “good” it means we haven’t given up on nightly prayer together to make it through the next day. It means we have tried to put all our fears aside and have decided to move forward with what doctors are telling us. It means that we are somehow figuring out a way to pay for all this and still have enough when the baby comes to deal with life in general. It means that above all, we feel your love and support and know that we have HUNDREDS of people praying for us, thinking of us, and hoping that we are successful.

We are so grateful for this opportunity we have right now in our lives to be experiencing this. We want to thank everyone for all your love and support and hope it will continue regardless of the result and into our future. We are grateful for our friends who care so much for us and want to be a part of our lives.

To you all, we say we are doing “Good” and hope you understand!!!