Beaker's profile. Huge head- gonne be smart-LOL!

Beaker waiving "hi"! His head is to the far right, then fat body, the cute lil legs. The arm closest to the bottom is the one that waived. We are SOOOOOOO in LOVE!!!

8 week 4 day check-up was PERFECT! I am released off bed rest, and return to work on Monday! We had to share these REALLY cute pictures of Beaker with everyone. He is finally starting to look like a baby.

(And no, we don't know if it's a boy or not, just call it that since it is better than calling it an "it")

Mixed Blessings

To begin, I hope there is nothing in the email that would lead anyone to believe that we are ungrateful for being pregnant or for anything that has happened to us. We have grown and learned something with each thing that has happened thus far. We are so blessed and thank Heavenly Father every day for this opportunity right now.

So right before our first Ultra Sound, I was not feeling very “pregnant” . In fact, I even had some pretty weird pains on my left side. The day before the Ultra sound, I even had some spotting that caused tremendous panic and tears on my part, but we had decided we would go forward with faith no matter what and that things would work out the way that Heavenly Father wanted them to.

So after the success of our first Ultra Sound, I was soooo happy. Jason stated that I was the happiest he had seen me in a long time. It felt like nothing could bring us down, and that we were going to be successful!

Well, this past Sunday (3-13-11) was probably the worst day yet. While I was at church, I started bleeding very bad. Immediately Jason and I went to the fertility clinic. We were told that the baby was still alive (and we were able to see it’s heartbeat again). We were relieved, but also discovered that there was still a 50/50 chance of miscarriage. They put me on bed rest and said to come back on Wednesday to find out if the baby was still doing what it needed to.

So begins my bed rest . . .

Wednesday, my mom went with me to the apt cause Jason was in Fresno making money while I wasn’t getting paid. At the very start of the Ultra Sound they found a large blood clot on the back side of my uterus between the baby and the uterine wall. The baby was still alive and heartbeat had increased (like it was supposed to) and it was growing. BUT, I was still worried, and so was the doctor, especially when he found a second blood clot near the front of my uterus.

So he put me on bed rest until my next appointment on March 25^th. This is to make sure that things are okay. The clots, he states, might have happened as my placenta was trying to attach to the uterine wall. The clots can dissapate (the best scenario) or stay there my entire pregnancy. If they stick around, I could have continued bleeding for up to 4 months (or even longer).

I have looked online and found that they are called subchorionic hematoma (or SCH). You can read a little more about it on this webpage: http://www.justmommies.com/articles/subchorionic-hematoma.shtml. As you can tell, there is no real prognosis or cure for these, I just have to wait it out. I am unsure if my OBGyn will treat me or if they will refer me to a prenatalogist (specialist for pregnancy complications). I am in the “wait and see” stage of everything, and starting to go nuts J

Bed rest is not so bad. I like being able to get some things done (like this blog for instance), things I wouldn’t normally have time to do. BUT, doing them all in one place or one position is kinda frustrating. I still have MONTHS of things I can work on, but I keep reminding myself to relax and enjoy the time that I am not working first, and take some time each day to walk around the house just to get blood flowing through my legs (not fast or a lot, most of you know we have a small 700sq foot condo, so not a lot of room to walk-lol).

So here is to more BED REST and moving forward with Faith that everything will work itself out.

WE ARE PREGNANT!!!!!!

I guess it has been a little while since I have updated this blog and should probably start off with that statement. We found out on Jason’s Birthday (best birthday gift ever- I’m never going to be able to top this one). It was confirmed a week later that I was truly pregnant. Exciting time!

We need to thank all the people that have contributed so much to this success. It is such a miracle that we were even able to get to this point. We cannot believe all the love, all the support and all the help that we have received. We feel so blessed that we have been surrounded by those we love during this time. Our prophet of our church reminds us to be grateful, and I cannot express my gratitude enough for everything that I have been given. But there is no way any of this would be possible if it weren’t for our Heavenly Father. We know that it is through him that we have been so blessed.

I am going to save the scary moments for my next post called mixed blessings. However, there has been many fun and exciting moments that I need to share in this post.

Since we did In-Vitro, we were able to have an Ultra Sound at 6 weeks to find out how many babies we were pregnant with. So on March 11^th, we were able to see our little ONE (yes only one baby). We are actually very relieved that there is only one baby as if we had had more, it would have been overwhelming. We are at peace with the one baby and feel blessed to even be pregnant with one.

Beaker 6 weeks 4 days

(Side note, several people have asked what happened to our second embryo that was implanted. They don’t know, probably my body absorbed it back. I am not concerned about it.)

Our little baby Beaker is perfect in our eyes. We were very lucky to not only see, but hear the heartbeat (very few people are able to that early) which was 122bpm. He is so cute, ok, not really. He actually looks like an alien. We have had a few more Ultra Sounds since then (see post above as to why) and he is still growing strong. He was up to 9mm in size and the heartbeat was up to 148bpm on Wednesday 3-16-11.

Beaker 7 weeks 2 days

Again, I need to thank everyone who has continued to pray with us, fast with us, cry with us, and still be there 100% behind. There is no way we could ever pay back the blessings we have received this year, we just hope that one day we will be able to help others the way we have been helped.