Mixed Blessings

To begin, I hope there is nothing in the email that would lead anyone to believe that we are ungrateful for being pregnant or for anything that has happened to us. We have grown and learned something with each thing that has happened thus far. We are so blessed and thank Heavenly Father every day for this opportunity right now.

So right before our first Ultra Sound, I was not feeling very “pregnant” . In fact, I even had some pretty weird pains on my left side. The day before the Ultra sound, I even had some spotting that caused tremendous panic and tears on my part, but we had decided we would go forward with faith no matter what and that things would work out the way that Heavenly Father wanted them to.

So after the success of our first Ultra Sound, I was soooo happy. Jason stated that I was the happiest he had seen me in a long time. It felt like nothing could bring us down, and that we were going to be successful!

Well, this past Sunday (3-13-11) was probably the worst day yet. While I was at church, I started bleeding very bad. Immediately Jason and I went to the fertility clinic. We were told that the baby was still alive (and we were able to see it’s heartbeat again). We were relieved, but also discovered that there was still a 50/50 chance of miscarriage. They put me on bed rest and said to come back on Wednesday to find out if the baby was still doing what it needed to.

So begins my bed rest . . .

Wednesday, my mom went with me to the apt cause Jason was in Fresno making money while I wasn’t getting paid. At the very start of the Ultra Sound they found a large blood clot on the back side of my uterus between the baby and the uterine wall. The baby was still alive and heartbeat had increased (like it was supposed to) and it was growing. BUT, I was still worried, and so was the doctor, especially when he found a second blood clot near the front of my uterus.

So he put me on bed rest until my next appointment on March 25^th. This is to make sure that things are okay. The clots, he states, might have happened as my placenta was trying to attach to the uterine wall. The clots can dissapate (the best scenario) or stay there my entire pregnancy. If they stick around, I could have continued bleeding for up to 4 months (or even longer).

I have looked online and found that they are called subchorionic hematoma (or SCH). You can read a little more about it on this webpage: http://www.justmommies.com/articles/subchorionic-hematoma.shtml. As you can tell, there is no real prognosis or cure for these, I just have to wait it out. I am unsure if my OBGyn will treat me or if they will refer me to a prenatalogist (specialist for pregnancy complications). I am in the “wait and see” stage of everything, and starting to go nuts J

Bed rest is not so bad. I like being able to get some things done (like this blog for instance), things I wouldn’t normally have time to do. BUT, doing them all in one place or one position is kinda frustrating. I still have MONTHS of things I can work on, but I keep reminding myself to relax and enjoy the time that I am not working first, and take some time each day to walk around the house just to get blood flowing through my legs (not fast or a lot, most of you know we have a small 700sq foot condo, so not a lot of room to walk-lol).

So here is to more BED REST and moving forward with Faith that everything will work itself out.